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Sunday, August 20, 2006

spare me the agony of losing a friend.

people make mistakes all the time dont we? to err is human, to forgive is divine. well, im ready to ascend to the realm of divinity and do just that - forgive. hang in there, dont give up.
i trust u, really. do consider other alternatives - anything - but leaving. whatever route u choose to take, i'll live a happy man for i once knew such a friend.

the 1.5l of beer i consumed yesterday was great; it allowed me to put my labyrinth of whys, hows and whats on hiatus. fret not, i remained sober throughout the night.

friends - the ones who will catapult me into the pinnacle of life.
i dont want to lose the true essence of life.

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6:59 PM

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

au revoir, my attraction.

i see an immediate need to address certain issues. it is good to be discerning, but somtimes, people look too deep - too much - into it. as the plot thickens, i will like to remind u to be punctilious in the words/message that im going to convey.

hopefully, this will clear the air of misunderstanding.

i cannot reiterate enough that attraction do not denote affection - these two words are as different as day and night. attraction = charm. affection = fondness.
im clearly only in the attraction stage.
perhaps its my improper usage of words or volatile sentiment that have given rise to inconveniences, i apologise for this.

friends we will remain. (:
love all of u guys.

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12:53 AM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Dreams are infused with fantasy.

Dreams. What exactly are they made off?

Perhaps it's like an unopened door in our head - when probe and knock on, they swell and become voluptuous, billowing through the pores of our entire being. Then, the door is viciously flung opened and the next moment, we are on our pursuit of that dream.

Perhaps, it's a natural aphrodisiac; definitely the most perplexing drug to surface on this world. It emerges as a clear victor when juxtaposed with ice, opium & heroin. We live, so as to see our dreams fulfilled. Don't we?
Humans thrive on dreams - often a driving force in life. It has the ability to subvert the destiny of a man if one chooses to attempt this dream by employing effort.

Perhaps, it's a see-it-through-all mirror. We covet to see the perfect 'me' and thus we might embark on a journey to execute our plans to see our dreams fulfilled. In this expedition, our character is put to the test. The demon or angel in us will be unleashed; some people resort to unscrupulous methods while some will not compromise with their fundamental moral beliefs and take the conventional route - hard work & perseverance.
This mirror will reveal the best reflection of our being - thoroughly.

Or..

Perhaps, it's just a fallacy; a figment of our imagination.

Dreams are luxuries I cannot afford - they require meticulous planning and the extravagance of time. Even with these pre-requisite factors in place, the dream might never come to pass. Humans are subjected to circumstances; we never know what lies ahead.
This make Dreams so fallacious.

Needless to say, I have dreams too.

I dream of
-donning on exquisite designer accoutrements
-living by the sea
-have a dog of my own
-staying near all my good buddies
-being exceptionally successful in whatever career I choose
-growing old together with my loved ones
-taking strolls every evening
-reading enriching books all day round
-retiring in a serene farmhouse in the west
-traveling around the world
and the list never ends.

These unsaid dreams provide the invisible glue that holds my fragile sanity together. They will be the reason I study, the reason that sustains me through the Os.
Of course, I need the support of my friends, family & god too.

Now that I have the glue, I need the lacquer; a special someone to give my dreams a sleek finish.

It's my fantasy.
I can see, but can't have. this entry has been edited.

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4:10 PM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

As we move on.

abby, w.song, zhihao, jonas, joey & wilson.

In their companionship, emotional disclosure came easily. There were no restrictions; unhappiness was abruptly voiced, but promptly forgotten. Delirium experienced was registered and conveniently embedded on our inmost depths.
I love the raunchy gossips - think Benedict - I love the unflinching loyalty, though intricately structured, but we had the ease of accessing it with our keys - camaraderie.

There are special 4 words tipping over my lips, hovering dangerously near the cliff of eruption. It is a precarious balancing act which cannot withstand the constant instigation of my heart. These are the words that have to be said, lest I never have the chance again - like a tsunami decides to head my way this very moment, engulf me and hastily set me on the highway to heaven.
My friends, your presence have undeniably painted blissful pictures in my life. The rapport we have established will continue to be a stronghold in my times of distress, from all these, I draw strength.

How can I then, not enunciate?
I love you friends!!

Please do not mistake my proclamation for flippancy; each and every word is underlain with utmost sincerity. (:

We may be different in many aspects - diverse temperaments, individual interests and personal preferences - however, we are still closely knitted together because of the basic trust and respect we have for one another. There are many places we have set foot on, countless intellectually stimulating (familiar eh?haa) conversations we had and not forgetting, the fun-filled outings.

I have lost count of the number of consecutive outings we had, and perhaps even the usage of our infamous cliche expression - 'this kind of thing must relax one!'
After all, just the memories and the collective mental consciousness was enough.

I have been given the special privilege to witness the coalescence of our lives and I am eternally grateful. You guys have become an inseparable part of my life, serenading me with the much needed support.

It is never about the places nor the events, but the company.

Now, I live another day, lissome on the wings of enchanted friendship knowing that friends are for life.

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1:51 PM